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Monday October 4, 2010
HEALING
"I am energized with perfect life"

True healing goes beyond the physical. It extends beyond the mending of a broken bone to the mending of a broken spirit. Deep healing requires that i release fear--release regret, worry, doubt and judgment---and embrace forgiveness.

True healing starts in the silence, where I experience the healing power of the Divine--the healing presence of Spirit. It is there that i connect with the essence of my being--the perfection of all that I am.

Centered in divine love, I allow peace and joy to rise up in me. I am healed at all levels. Attuned to Christ consciousness, i know that all is in order right here, right now. Anchored in the love of God, I am perfect health, perfect wholeness.

I run a respite house for victims of hate crimes and am looking for funding or donations to help cover the costs of respite guests' groceries and their hydro costs.  I am a retired mental health counsellor and live on disability due to a hate crime. Victims Services does little after-care. Many of the long term effects from a hate crime are life altering.

My respite house is on Quadra Island, British Columbia, Canada: an old, former kayaking bed and breakfast resort. The peace and beauty here is incredibly healing.

I cannot afford to tend to victims for more than a few days unless they get immediate employment or income assistance.  This respite house is a last stop - a place stayed at much like a women's safe house.  It is a last refuge for anxious, depressed, homeless or near homeless, and suicidal victims.  So, though I personally cannot afford to feed and house these good people, the need is so great that I am put in a difficult situation. Most of these people are traumatized and functioning poorly by the time they get here. 

If anyone has an idea of how I might acquire funding or donations, I would appreciate hearing about it.  Such a small amount is needed.

Thank you,

Mary Lamont

windintrees1@gmail.com

Box 534

Heriot Bay, BC  V0P 1H0

Canada

604 629 9885 - satellite phone with long delay

hi there,

             peterJ here.  A core story i'm bein' with:

I was homeless in Santa Cruz, CA, USA & doin' what i euphemistically call "unpaid political work"; surviving, building community, sometimes bein' active&engaged.  I had&have family in the San Francisco Bay Area & was involved in going back-and-forth more often.  In the middle nineties, i moved up to San Francisco thinking i would simply be shifting my base & instead of bein' there, i'd be here (SF) & continuing to do much of the same.

             I rapidly learned that i lived here now.  I went from bein' homeless & couchsurfing&squating to feeling like the Mission is my home (while continue to couchsurf & squat) even before i was paying rent, to feeling like The Mission is my homeland (before i was living where i am now).  

             Some of what i'm currently enagage with are:

• tea / plant-medicine / tea-culture
  
• yi jing (I Ching) learning, study, sharing, & reading
  
• reading (especially spiritual, practical, science fiction&fantasy, queer, community organizing, anarchist, etc..(to name a few:) )
  
• movement / bodywork / energy & internal arts
  
• creating & supporting artistic expression
  

          So now i've lived in the same room in an SRO on Valencia Street since August of 2001 (civil calendar).  I have a vibrant web of relationship, interests, spaces, projects, you name it.  I am also struggling with depression, hoarding-and-cluttering, poverty & abuse.  

i'm a newbie to AidPage & here to learn&share.  So...

         Some current (as of 13July2010 civ cal) needs & problems:

• more spaces & resources to share (with our (emergent communities) folx)  including¬ limited to:
  
  • healers&healing (of *all* ways/kinds/flavors/modalities)
    
  • ?
    

• more encouragement & support to receive&give care
  
  • especially emphasizing
    
    • selfcare,
      
    • peercare, &
      
    • community-based care
      
  • ?
    

well, that's a bunch now...

                                               i'll go look & see if i can offer other aidPage folx something...

in dat lovingkindness& 

solidarity spirit

peterJ(erome) SAMPSON

 This post is a sad one but I'm sure there are others out there who are going through a lot of the same things I am going through. I joined Aidpage a couple of days ago to ask for help paying my bills. I have been told by my Doctor that I only have about 6 months left because cancer has evaded my body. I have went through surgery and chemo but the cancer seems to be winning. I believe in God and trust Him for everything. I was hoping this site would lead me to some who could help me with my finances and help make my life a little more bearable. Since I joined I have been reading the needs of others and I have responded to some of those needs. God has reminded me that as long as I have breath in my body I am still needed. I invite others of you who may be dealing with a terminal illness to contact me. Maybe by sharing with each other we will be able to lift each other up. I am still waiting for my financial help and my healing miracle. God be with you and may He minister to your every need.

My job is to help those who has given up on life.

     I  want to share a quick story about betrayal and forgiveness, just one that changed my ways of thinking forever.....Collossians 3:12-3:13  Therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, put on tender mercies, kindness, humility, meekness, longsuffering: bearing with one another, and forgiving one another: even as Christ forgave you, so you also must do.  Now of course the whole chapter is great speaking on how we should live higher like that of the Lord and not live of this earth.  Well the point being most of us do live of this earth he knew that and gave his life for our sins.  But here is what I learned "from the mouths of babes". My daughter had been offended .  Dealing with behaviours of this has not been easy at all.  But when he was sentenced and I had said somthing negative about it all (this was about 8 years ago),  my daughter, bless her soul, looked up at me that day standing on our front porch and spoke words of truth that rang right through to my heart!! ~~~~~  She said, "Mommy, I love him and forgive him. I dont have to like him or be near him or trust him,  but God says we must love and forgive even our enemy."  I was then speechless. Then enemy in my heart wanted to scream back how can you forgive this such and such....but I knew she was right,  and I knew somehow that I must learn to forgive those that have hurt me and my loved ones. I slowly put it away and bit by bit over the next few years leaned to forgive and it was not easy, until a few years later 2003.  I will never forget how strongly God gave me the answer to what forgiveness truly meant.~~~~~ I was working in a drug and alcohol rehab. And the clients before me that I worked with on a daily basis of this 30 day in house treatment program, were very angry at life and the things that had been dealt to them over the years.  I had a woman speak out in a group meeting I was holding, she spoke about being angry and about sexual abuse.  I was very familiar with her anger as both my daughter and I personally went through this each our own cases as young children.  Right then in the midst of our group meeting  I spoke out something that I know came from God.  He used me right at that moment to give this woman a way to forgive and heal, and at the same time, tell me the true meaning of forgiveness so that I could finally start to heal as well.~~~~~ I spoke out in front of every client in that group, "I know in this clinical setting I can not really share in a group my beliefs in God, and you may not agree with what I am about to say and I will take no offense but I just have to say this".  I paused and then out it came, "Forgiveness is not something you do to help the other person.  Forgiveness simply means that you give your anger at this person or persons up to God. You see when you forgive someone  you are not saying that what they did was right or that they are allowed to offend you again. What you are saying is that you are going to move on and you are going to let God take care of that person and not seek vengance with your anger. That only hurts you more. Just simply give it to God and start to heal."~~~~~The lesson that day spoke once again right to my heart.  And all this time I had been learning to forgive and not yet truly understanding it or healing fully as I know God wanted me to.  Sometimes when I get mad today it still may take me a day or a few minutes to forgive and move past the situation. But the fact is I cant seem to not forgive. It is truly a healing thing to forgive.  I believe God knew this when he commanded us to forgive. And finally I grasped that forgiving had nothing to do with that person before me. Jesus already died for his or her sins just as he did my own.  So forgiving simply was intended for us to release or emotions of the situation to God and trust that he would take care of it and that it was soley a tool in me giving my life up to God.  Sorry if it seems abit of a long blog msg here but I was led to share it.  So thank you anyone who takes the time in reading this and may God bless you.

This is a story about never giving up on your dreams and the lessons I've learned to overcome trauma in order to transform it into love.

In the past I attracted men who claimed to love me but never showed the actions to support it.  My first boyfriend when I was 16 raped me and cheated on me with a 13 year old.  I have so far experienced 5 more sexual assaults. After the last one I realized that the men who inflicted the pain upon me were suffering more than I ever could because they do not know how to give and receive affection or compassion.

Six years after meeting one of my soul mates he went missing and was murdered before I could tell him that I loved him. From then on I promised myself to be fully present in the moment and to be grateful each day I get to experience paradise with those I love.

Last year I quit my job because I discovered that they were poisoning me by exposing me to chemicals that were labelled "Marine Pollutant" and knowing that my brain is 80% water I had to quit because the upper management did not want to hear about alternatives.  I have yet to find steady work to make ends meet since then.  Later that year my husband, after five months of supporting him financially and emotionally, became so violent that the people in the apartment below us heard had to call the police for me!

Two weeks ago I borrowed some money so that I could spend 8 days with a person I had only interacted with online prior to leaving.  My intuition told me to just trust in this adventure and he turned out to be the man that I've been dreaming of and we had the greatest time of our lives so far!!!  We have the same passions, lifestyle choices and long-term goals.  We have quickly developed a deep desire to be with each other because we know that we both are incredibly unique and we feel like we've found our truest match!  Our dream and long-term goal is to open a holistic healing retreat centre in Costa Rica where we would be featuring natural building techniques, local, gourmet raw food, Quantum healing touch, various Yoga techniques, Horticulture Therapy and surf camps. 

The are a few factors that are keeping us apart.  I'm Canadian, he's American and we're both in debt.  I still need to pay for a divorce, legal aid and moving expenses.  The apartment that I live in currently is where my husband assaulted me.  The building manager happens to be the mother of my first rapist and by chance my next door neighbour happens to be an abusive ex-boyfriend.  I haven't been able to afford to move and for 6 months I was disabled by Post-traumatic stress disorder and couldn't work. 

My greatest desire now is to connect with a man who has shown me the most love, appreciation and kindness I have ever experienced!  I want to be able to finally celebrate and grow within a relationship; after overcoming so much I know I deserve to be happy!!! 

Having dreams are what have kept me resilient, creative and alive after all the trauma that I've experienced.  If my dreams were taken away from me, I would have nothing to live for.  I greatly desire just for once that I will see my dreams become a reality!  I would love to see a transformation from trauma into a fairy tale that ends happily ever after!!!

in loving remembrance

Week 3.

   Well, week 3 seems to be going pretty well so far.  Fights and frustration seem to be giving away to understanding and some mutual respect for both of us moving forward.  There are plenty of things that I am concerned about, but at the moment I only feel comfortable voicing them with people on the internet.  I think I'll run this like a doctor visit and they ask you what's wrong... or more importantly how you've been feeling...

  I've been reading a lot about PTSD (post traumatic stress syn), and RTS (rape trauma syndrome) to find out that my GF is definitely lost somewhere in there.  I'm unsure as to discuss the symptoms (educational and hopefully comforting), problems that can arise from these trauma's going unresolved, and just general thoughts on other preductive things that can happen from this event.  I will press her again this week to go see a psychiatrist but I can definitely see it going badly (doesn't mean I won't do it!).  I lately have been really interested in her discussing her trauma with a professional because I think that she needs someone else other than me to speak to.  I get the feeling that there is a large amount of guilt in her still and I know that I can't make thatgo away.  The nicer I am, the more concerned I am... the more guilt she will probably feel.  She probably even feels that she did this to me.  Either way, I think an objective authority will be helpful for her to really release any of those deep emotions (anger, guilt, hate) before they evolve into something much more destructive.

  HIV.  She's on her 3rd week of PEP pills to help prevent the virus HIV from attacking and multiplying within her T-cells.  It seems as though there are good odds of prevention.  Unfortunately she was at high-risk, but still... odds are in her favor.  Unfortunately, we will not be able to have unsafe sex again until her last 6 month checkup.  Not so exciting... but, so far, sex is probably one of the last things we need to be thinking about.  Which brings me to my final topic.

  Sex.  We've already had sex four times (obviously with condoms and I'm well aware of the risk), but I'm getting the feeling that this will be one hell of a slippery slope for us for a LONG TIME.  Here's a little background, we have had a lot of sex in the past and neither one of us would ever been interested in changing that.  I know that she and I were very much on the same page when it comes to sex (sadly our relationship was probably 25-35% sexual connection, though we were working on that), but obviously now, this will (or may not) change.  She shows a lot of interest in her life to going back to normal and that's what I allowed her.  BUT I'm starting to feel like sex will be completely different and that she was just hoping that it wouldn't by us having sex those four times.  Also, I should say that I haven't pressured her in any way other than that she is well aware that my ex had sex issues with me and that I didn't like that.  But there is also a world of difference between sex once a week at age 28, and sex 2-3 times a day!  I don't mind at all if she wants to wait 6 months... well, maybe a little, but I'll DEAL WITH IT.  I just have no control over her head... and just hope for the best.  and if there's anything I hate... it's hope.

  I could use some thoughts about what I should do if anything about sex.  Does anyone have experience with this situation?  Are there things I have already done wrong?  Are there things that I should watch out for?  I'm actually really nervous that she'll leave me for someone else that won't know that she was raped and can live a normal life again (well, minus the huge white elephant of denial in the room) but you get the idea... Is that even realistic or am I going a little crazy too???

  Thanks anyone.

Who is Tidblessi?  The Ann Landers of today.  Tidblessi gives you advice about your issues and problems according to God's Word.  If you need help in your life then write to Tidblessi.  Read my posts as I put articles in there.  I am a Pastoral Counselor/Coach and Teacher.  If you need help I can help you.  God Bless You Richly!!! God loves you.

Out of the blue it is like a light went on in my head and now i get it. i have been sober for almost 5 months yet i still had the thinking of a drunk, with following the process and attending meetings and group sessions i still did not feel as if i was being healed from this illness and that is because in my mind i was still playing the victim. i went from drinking to cover up pain past and present to treating people badly and felt it was justified because of the things i had gone through. the bible says when my people who are called by my name humble themselves and pray then i will heal the land. it was not until i began to humble myself did i feel i was being healed from this disease. i had to forgive all that i felt was done wrong to me. i had to stop thinking i was better then others and start treating people with respect. i had to stop justifying my actions and start asking people to forgive me. all i want is to be happy and sober and enjoy life with out holding on the horrible past. I LET IT GO!. so now with a clear mind and a new heart i am ready to recieve healing and i find not only is staying sober within my grasp. I am being healed from things i hand no idea i held on too for so many years. To wrap this up I have learned that changing the way we think can and will change a situation!

May God's favours and blessings be upon you, your family and all your friends and acquaintances now, and forever!  thank you.

     My sister GENNY KENWARD has breast cancer.  Please pray for her healing and deliverance from this cancer.   I thank you and God Bless.

Jeff W.

If I told you of my story, I'm pretty sure your response would be something like "Wow!" or "oh my, you have had such a rough life" or, "how did you survive that!!!" Naturally, when emotional events occur in life, most people tend to either shut down to the world, or go the other direction and tell everyone who will listen in hopes of finding comfort, answers, or sympathy. The only issue with that is, sometimes we get addicted to telling the story. ....So what's the problem with that???? you ask. Continue

Due to sickness in the family I went through very stressful times, i was lucky to have good friends and family suport Thank you and God bless you all. Due to your help my life is getting better stadily for the last three years .I believe in helping others we are helping ourselfs It comes back to us three times  as much.I want to give what suport i can.

This is a repost from another forum I'm a part of but being a suvivor of abuse, I felt it important to share here.

Helping Survivors and Victims Heal: Things Not To Say To Someone Recovering

The subject of abuse is one of the hardest things to talk about when it comes to survivors and victims speaking out. For a survivor or victim to take the chance to break their silence and reveal the truth about what has gone on in their lives takes so much courage on their part. Yet, for those who do speak out and break their silence, they are often judged and put down by those who haven't been abused and even by those who have been abused. There are so many phrases that people say to those who share their stories of survival that don't help them heal but actually hurt them more and sometimes cause survivors and victims to completely shut down and not say another word about what they've experienced. For those who claim they want to help others heal, there are some pretty ignorant things that are said to those speaking out. Survivors and victims have gone through so much all ready that they don't need negative remarks and assumptions made about them, especially not from those who have gone through abuse in their own lives. As a survivor, I've heard many phrases that were judgmental. Now, I know that sometimes people say things that they think will help others to heal, but you have to be careful in what you say because as survivors and victims, we are still fragile from what we've been through. I can always tell the people who are bitter about their past and the ones who think they know everything by the things they say to me on here. Even as a survivor, I still hear from people how I am a victim. I'm not a victim though and I often disregard those remarks they make because they apparently don't really know me or what I've gone through. But I wanted to make a list of things that should not be said when you are trying to help victims and survivors heal and not to say to someone who is recovering from the past. These are things that I have been told and have heard and I will give the reasons as to why they should not be said.



"Stop being a victim"

This phrase is something I hear a lot. That's so easy for people to say who have never been through abuse in their lives. They don't know what all abuse does to someone and all the battles that we survivors have to fight long after the abuse is over. When someone says "stop being a victim" it's the same as someone saying "shut up and quit whining about what you've been through." Survivors are not victims! There is a difference between survivors and victims. A survivor is someone who has escaped their situation and has broken the cycle of abuse. A victim is one who is still trapped in their abusive situation and still suffering and enduring it daily. Survivors do not act like victims. Just because they are expressing their feelings and emotions does not mean that they are in any way a victim still. They are just releasing those feelings that have been locked up for all that time they were being abused and lived in silence. Never tell a survivor to "stop being a victim." Even for those who are victims that you are trying to help, do not say that. For some victims, it is very dangerous for them to leave their situation right away and they have to be smart about how they make their escape by making plans and plotting the best time to leave and how they're going to leave without their abuser finding out. This phrase causes many victims and survivors to shut down and not want to talk about what they go through or have been through because this is often taken as a degrading remark.



"You didn't have it as bad as I did so quit whining and complaining about your past"

First off, when a survivor or victim tells their story, they are not whining and complaining. They are reaching out for help by sharing their story and some survivors use their stories to help others out there. How do you know that someone didn't have it as bad as you when you weren't even present in their lives when they went through the abuse? Everyone has the worst case of abuse because every case of abuse is bad! There is no way anyone can sit there and tell someone else they had it worse since none of us have ever been in someone else's shoes. Sure, we've been through similar situations, but everyone's background is different and the pain that we feel is not the same because everyone feels and deals with pain differently. No one has the right to tell someone else they didn't have it as bad. When people write their story or share their story, it doesn't mean they are whining and complaining. It just means they are letting things out that they need to let out. Otherwise, if they keep holding it inside, it hurts them even more.



"Why do you make surviving all about being abused? Is that all you hope to be and all that you are about?"

Surviving is about dealing with the scars from the abuse we endured and overcoming the pain from the past as we allow ourselves to heal. When it comes to spreading awareness, survivors use their stories of how they were abused to open people's eyes to the truth about what really goes on behind closed doors. Survivors are not all about being abused. No, we are about shedding light on the truth and we reach out to others by sharing our own experiences. We're about educating people on the dangers of abuse and exposing the truth for all to see. We're about giving other survivors and victims hope and faith that they can have a life after abuse and live an abuse free life. That it is possible. There would never be any change and none of us could ever make a difference if we didn't share our experiences with others. The life of a survivor and victim is not all glitter and glam. Abuse is not pretty and neither are the battles we face after we go from being a victim to becoming a survivor.



"It's your fault that you were abused and you must have done something to deserve it."

NO!!! IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT!! No one does anything to deserve abuse. No one does anything to ask for it either. Oh this is one of the remarks that really makes me upset. I have had survivors come to me and tell me that when they tried to tell someone about the abuse they went through, they were told that it was their fault and that they asked for it. My ex told me that when I told him about the abuse my father put me through. He told me I must have done something to deserve it. When I told him that I stood up to my father and wasn't afraid to stand up to him, his reply was that since I talked back to my father, I did deserve the abuse. It is never the person's fault because people do not have to abuse other people. I believe that we are responsible for our own actions and we can control our anger instead of letting it control us and taking it out on others. Those of us who go through abuse or have gone through it had no control over the situation we were in. We were innocent lives caught in the middle of someone else's anger and instead of them getting help for the things they went through, they chose to take their anger out on us. We didn't tell them to hit us or abuse us or hurt us. Trust me, none of us want to go through that pain and live with it.



"I hope that you close that chapter of your life and learn to forgive so you can move on"

Forgiveness is a decision that one has to make for themselves. When it comes to the ones that have hurt us, it's not easy to just forgive them for what they did. For me, it took awhile until I finally forgave my abusers for what they put me through. With forgiveness, you have to be ready to do it on your own; no one can make that decision for you. For most survivors and victims, it's hard to forgive the person who beat them every day, who tore their spirit down, who shattered their dreams, who made them grow up too fast, etc. Some people can forgive easily while others struggle with it and never forgive their abusers. But that is a personal choice and it doesn't make someone a bad person if they don't forgive right away or at all. As far as closing that chapter of our lives, well that's a part of our history that will forever be a part of us. We cannot run away from who we are and what we've gone through just like we can't deny what we went through. Those chapters are all ready closed once we find ourselves away from the abuse. Just because we write about it does not mean that we have re opened those chapters. It just means that we are reflecting on those experiences and if we want to help others, sometimes we have to go back to those chapters. It's like in a book that you read. Sometimes to understand something, you have to go back to a place in the book and re read a part to understand the next part. In our lives, we use parts of those closed chapters to help people understand the present chapters in our lives.



"The past is the past, it's over and done with, so get over it all ready"

Sure, the past may be done with, but the memories stay with us forever. Even as survivors, we still have to fight battles that come our way because the past has a way of coming back and taunting us or haunting us. Some of us have flashbacks from what we went through. It's so easy for people who haven't been abused to tell us to just block it out but we never can fully block out the memories from those days. We never forget where we came from. Everyone heals in their own time and the healing process is not something that happens over night, either. You can't just tell someone to get over it. Everyone has their own ways in which they heal and for some, it takes longer.



"You must have gone looking for an abusive relationship or you must have had a target on you that attracted an abusive partner"

This one I have heard many times. I've been told before that those who have had abusive relationships or been in abusive childhoods have some kind of target on them which attracts other abusive people. I've heard that abusers can tell who's been a victim before by the way they act. I personally don't believe that anyone goes looking for an abusive relationship. Most of us dream about that happily ever after and meeting that special someone who will love us and cherish us for the rest of our lives. For those of us who have been victims before, we don't want to repeat that part of our lives. As far as abusers being able to tell who's been a victim in the past, I really don't know about that. We don't enter abusive relationships intentionally and unless we tell someone about the abuse we've been through, then how do they know we were victims before? Okay, my ex didn't know about that part of my life until after we got married. In fact, to everyone around me, I appeared to be a strong, confident woman. The man I married saw me as someone confident and strong and that is one of the things he liked about me. I never suspected that he'd turn out to be like my dad because he didn't show that side until after we got married. Some of the strongest, most confident women have entered abusive relationships but I don't think it was because of the way they acted or because one could tell they'd been abused before. Most people don't ever talk about being abused. I think it has more to do with people are good at hiding their abusive side and keeping things about themselves buried so the can lure others in. Obviously, they won't show their true colors right away because then the person would know to run away and an abuser doesn't want the person to run away. I mean, when I look at the people around me when I go out, unless they have a black eye or bruises which most people conceal, I wouldn't be able to tell if someone has been abused simply by looking at them and watching them interact with others.



"What's wrong with you that you would find yourself a victim of abuse" or just "what's wrong with you"

Believe it or not, this is one I was asked a few years ago. There is nothing wrong with a person who has been a victim of abuse. As I've stated before, no one asks to be abused and no one does anything to deserve it. To ask someone what is wrong with them that they would find themselves a victim really puts all the blame on them. It makes them feel that the guilt belongs to them and that they must have done something to deserve it. Then they start having feelings of shame over it when they shouldn't be carrying guilt and shame for things that were never their fault. You don't ask someone "what's wrong with you". There's a difference between asking "what's wrong" and "what's wrong with you". What's wrong implies that you are there for them to talk to and that you care about what they are facing. What's wrong with you suggests that you are saying they have qualities that made them become a victim and that according to society, they are not "normal" which you cannot define the word normal when it comes to people.



"You're not normal like everyone else because of what you went through"

Don't compare a victim or survivor to others who have not gone through abuse. This is one of the things my ex also did to me all the time. He compared me to his first love and his friends and even his friends' wives who had never gone through abuse. He would sit there and tell me that I deserved to be locked up and that I wasn't normal because I suffered abuse. I believe that when it comes to people you can't define the word "normal." I hate the word "normal" when it's being used to regard people. I believe everyone is unique, special, beautiful and one of a kind despite what they have been through. Everyone in life has been through different things and unless we've gone through what they have, then I don't think we'll really understand what it's like. We can be there to listen but as far as knowing how it feels, we'll never know since we aren't them and don't live their lives.



"Well, you didn't suffer the abuse long enough to really know how the pain feels"

Time has nothing to do with the pain someone feels. There are survivors out there who really believe that for those who went through abuse for a shorter time than they did, they can't possibly know what the pain is really like and that they've been through even more pain. The abuse in my marriage went on for 9 months. Yeah, to some people, when they look at my age and how long I was abused in my marriage, they think that I can't possibly know what the pain is like since they went through their abuse for 9 years, 19 years, etc. Those 9 months may not seem like a long time to other people, but to me it felt like an eternity. Those 9 months left behind so many scars and to this day I still feel pain from it. It doesn't matter if one has suffered abuse 9 hours, 9 days, 9 weeks, 9 months, 9 years, 29 years, etc. because abuse, any form of abuse, leaves behind scars and after effects that stay with a person and that the person has to continue to battle and heal from after they leave and it's stopped. All forms of abuse, no matter how long they last for, hurt. No matter how long someone endures it, they feel pain from it.



"Your story isn't as important because there are others who have been through so much more"

Every story is important. Every story is different. Don't tell someone their story isn't important and don't tell them that others have had it worse. When we go through abuse, do you honestly think we are thinking about who has it worse? No! Our mind is on the pain we feel and to us, we do have it worse. Every voice deserves to be heard and every story deserves to be told. Why do we insist on using stories as a way of comparison and why do we make being abused a competition as if we are making it a game of who has the most scars and battle wounds? Come on, that is stupid! Yeah, it's okay to be proud of being a survivor but why brag about the abuse you have gone through? Stories should be used not to brag and boast but to help spread awareness and reach out to others. We can all learn from one another. But being abused should never be used as a competition.



"No one will ever want you since you've been abused"

That's not true. There are people out there who don't look at the past but look at the present and the future. They don't care about your past because the right one will love you for who you are. When they look at you, they don't see flaws and imperfections. The scars fade away out of sight because in their eyes, you are the most beautiful person they have ever laid eyes on. They appreciate your outer beauty as well as your inner beauty. They notice the things about you, the qualities about you that others are blinded to. Even when you do tell them about what you've gone through, they don't run away but they help you fight through it. They choose to stay because they love you and care about you and to them, you are someone worth fighting for. If someone is only focused on your past, then don't waste your time on them. If they can't handle the truth when you tell them, if you choose to because that's up to you, then they don't deserve you. Be with someone who can handle it and who loves you, cherishes you, protects you, and fights for you. The one that you can be yourself around and don't have to hide anything from. That's the person that is worth being with.



"You're nothing but damaged goods"

I hate the term "damaged goods.
" According to www. urbandictionary. com, this is one of the definitions of damaged goods, 2)Someone who was once healthy and/or normal but isn't anymore due to unfortunate, traumatic events in his/her life (i.e. physical abuse, emotional abuse, sexual abuse, drug abuse...u get it). Again, people love to use the word normal and stick labels on survivors and victims. Labels are for products, not people. Being a survivor is not a disease and it's not a bad thing. We're the fortunate ones who lived through the abuse and lived to tell about it. Many don't survive. Survivor is a title that we should wear with pride and honor and not be ashamed about it. So we're not healthy because of what we went through and we can't function properly? I mean seriously, what is this? They treat us as if we are outcasts and if we are non human because of those events. This shows you how ignorant society is. Even for those who haven't gone through abuse, they have gone through hard times in their lives before too. But you won't hear anyone saying they are damaged goods . No one is damaged goods. We survivors are tougher and stronger than people give us credit for. I admit, I have anxiety attacks and flashbacks; I used to self inflict, I used to drink a lot, I used to be a tease and look for love in the wrong places, but does that make me damaged goods? No! I am happy with who I am today and those things I went through in my past helped make me stronger. I believe that survivors are not damaged goods but are warriors healing from the pain of the past. We're finding our way in life and rebuilding it. Just like anyone else, we have a chance at love and happiness in our own lives, too. Don't let anyone tell you that you are damaged goods. I have found survivors to be the ones who have hearts filled with compassion towards others hurting. That in my mind makes them stand out and makes them some of the most beautiful people there are.




These are just some of the phrases I have heard that I don't believe should be used when helping survivors and victims heal. Listening is the best thing to do when helping those recovering. The ingredients needed when reaching out to victims and survivors are empathy, insight, compassion, care, understanding, love, and patience. Be careful how you word things and don't say something that can hurt someone and make them just shut down and not talk about what they've gone through. It hurts them more when they don't talk about it. Don't treat them the way their abusers treated them by saying things to tear them down. Every story deserves to be told and every voice deserves to be heard. We need to encourage survivors and victims to speak out and talk about it whether then being the cause as to why they remain silent.

Family Business going under & Families in Ruin:  Married for 23 years but found wife was cutting herself (bad) and having various other problems that lead to her thinking things about myself that are unbelievable and therefore lead to a divorce and immense havoc (which I believe she regrets).  In the process as she wavered back and forth on things she stated, attorneys etc. milked our savings/assets etc. and now unless I get an last min. miracle will not only lose my family but a disgrace of the long time family business going under.  I want my family restored and business brought back to life as it has not only blessed us but blesing to so many.  I have been more than desporate for the lord to grant a Miracle!!

 SG's Cafeomancy 
(Psychic Reading Through Coffee Grounds)
 
 
"Coffee cup reading is like gazing the crystal ball to see one's future"
your coffee cup holds clues about yourself,your present and your future.

Cafeomancy can be a powerful meditative tool providing insights into the reader's subconscious.The process of coffee cup reading stimulates the imagination to create individualized interpretations and solutions.
One of the most popular forms of fortune-telling, depending largely upon psychic intuition. After a cup of coffee has been poured, without using a strainer, the coffee is drunk or poured away. The cup should then be shaken well and any remaining liquid drained off in the saucer. The diviner now looks at the pattern of coffee ground in the cup and allows the imagination to play around the shapes suggested by them.
They might look like a letter, a heart shape, or a ring. These shapes are then interpreted intuitively

 
Get your coffee cup read today!!!
 
By Simran Singh
Professional intuitive and spiritual Psychic advisor.
(specialist in colour healing through Paintings-BASED IN MUMBAI-BANDRA-W

Contact: Mumbai: 022-30627978